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This aching , longing feeling …………..
the emptiness in my soul that seem to grow larger……….
the pain increases with every throb of my aching heart………..
The salt in my hand……
Rubbed agaisnt the raw flesh of the Ulcer….
Sent a wave of pain……
So intense……
woke me up from the endless dream I that live…….
For a second…….
Nothing mattered except this pain……
Drew me away from everything…..
The salt….the pain…..moistened my eyes….
this ulcer, though pain, has come as a relieve for the hurting i endure within my soul
distracting me for a moment in time,
though brief as it may be……..
has lightened the sorrows that I bear……..

Today,

I ate, and I shite,

And I ate again….

And then I went to sleep…..

What about u?

WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?

A deep cold emptiness and hopelessness seem to have swept over me today. I started to hyperventilate and then tears start to pour out of my eyes as I looked thru my teary eyes at the distorted image of the brightened night sky in these unusually long summer days here in Melbourne. My roommate has left my apartment, he was here when I first came here, and he was someone I could count on, mentally and emotionally, but now his gone, leaving a gaping empty hole of wat was his room, like the hole in my heart left by my significant other a month back. Yes, a truth seemed to dawn on me at that moment. None of the people around us would be by us forever, people come, people leave and we are constantly closing chapters after chapters of our lives. I hate that, I hate it when things end, it makes me feel like I’m dying, like a little part of me dies everytime something ends and as i move on… to the next chapter, of my so called life. I still remember the end of Sec School, which i got totally lost for the very first time, chose poly instead of JC which I regret till this day. Then there was the end of BMT, and then the end of NS. There was also the day when I left everything behind to come to Melbourne for my last try of making something of my life. Sometimes I wonder why u hated things, and never really cherished what u were having till it ends and there u are missing it.

I forgot where i heard this theory of heaven that really appealed to me.
It said that when u die, u will go to the most happy time u have ever had in your life, and stay there for eternity. Its wonderful isnt it? Have any of you ever felt a moment of true happiness, where for tat moment everything seemed perfect?
The air, the people around you, the sounds and…..well….everything seemed perfect? And in that moment u felt true happiness, but it was only to last a moment, and then things wasn’t as perfect again, like everything in life, nothing is really perfect. But maybe, just maybe, when we die, we go to that perfect time and space that u have experienced and be there, for eternity…….and u will be in perfect happiness for eternity. Sounds so good don’t u think?

Hmm…………..well…… I cant think of anything more to say………so thats it for now……

You got your ball,
you got your chain,
Tied to me tight,
Tie me up Again.
Whos got the claws in you my fren,
Into your heart I’d beat again

Sweet like candy to my soul.
sweet u rock and sweet you roll
Lost for you im so lost for you
Oh, when u come crash into me.

And Ill come into you,
In a boy’s dream,
In a boy’s dream.

Touch your lips just so i know
In your eyes, Love it glows so
Im bared bone and crazy for you

If Ive gone over board,
Then Im begging u to forgive me for my haste
When Im holding u so girl,
Close to me……..

Crash into me, baby……….

Could somebody tell me how to change my blog design?? It looks so gay and uncool now, which is totally not me!! U know why? Because Im cool and man, totally man……more man than some of u would ever be!! MUAAaaahahahahahhaaha

Over the past months, many people have asked me when will the black phantom be back, and whether it will take its original form or something totally different. Im not very sure of it myself, you see, for the Resurrection to take place, everything must be in order, has to be perfect, like you must have the right weather plus the right time and the earth’s position relative to the sun, yada yada, and of coz, the right place at the right time in the space-time continuum. But above all things, the monetary situation has to be good. Because of this, it looks kinda bleak when Bush is screwing everything up for ME! Anyway, you never know when luck will change for the better. As soon as I notice any changes in the tide of things, you will be the first to know…….on my BLOG! yay…wat a cool guy I am….blogging and all….so cool…..

Anyway, I would like everybody to observe a minute of silence for the Black Phantom. There is not a minute that goes by when Im not thinking of you, you will be missed.

Oh, yeah, and it was depressing watching the viet family take his body back, makes me wonder, does anyone of us have the right to take somebody’s life.
It seems when u take his life, your not punishing him, your punishing the rest of his family. You know what i mean? The guy is dead, no more feeling and stuff, but the ppl around him man! They are all crying and sad and shit…….this isnt right u know? Not bloody right at all. But then again Im Singaporean, so i must support my country. Yeah…GO LEE!!!!!!!

Im not sure if I have a place for ppl to place comments, if there is…feel free to comment… oh, and feel free to donate to the "Revive Black Phantom Fund"

Thank you for listening,
Have a good……..day, month, yr watever……..