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A deep cold emptiness and hopelessness seem to have swept over me today. I started to hyperventilate and then tears start to pour out of my eyes as I looked thru my teary eyes at the distorted image of the brightened night sky in these unusually long summer days here in Melbourne. My roommate has left my apartment, he was here when I first came here, and he was someone I could count on, mentally and emotionally, but now his gone, leaving a gaping empty hole of wat was his room, like the hole in my heart left by my significant other a month back. Yes, a truth seemed to dawn on me at that moment. None of the people around us would be by us forever, people come, people leave and we are constantly closing chapters after chapters of our lives. I hate that, I hate it when things end, it makes me feel like I’m dying, like a little part of me dies everytime something ends and as i move on… to the next chapter, of my so called life. I still remember the end of Sec School, which i got totally lost for the very first time, chose poly instead of JC which I regret till this day. Then there was the end of BMT, and then the end of NS. There was also the day when I left everything behind to come to Melbourne for my last try of making something of my life. Sometimes I wonder why u hated things, and never really cherished what u were having till it ends and there u are missing it.

I forgot where i heard this theory of heaven that really appealed to me.
It said that when u die, u will go to the most happy time u have ever had in your life, and stay there for eternity. Its wonderful isnt it? Have any of you ever felt a moment of true happiness, where for tat moment everything seemed perfect?
The air, the people around you, the sounds and…..well….everything seemed perfect? And in that moment u felt true happiness, but it was only to last a moment, and then things wasn’t as perfect again, like everything in life, nothing is really perfect. But maybe, just maybe, when we die, we go to that perfect time and space that u have experienced and be there, for eternity…….and u will be in perfect happiness for eternity. Sounds so good don’t u think?

Hmm…………..well…… I cant think of anything more to say………so thats it for now……

You got your ball,
you got your chain,
Tied to me tight,
Tie me up Again.
Whos got the claws in you my fren,
Into your heart I’d beat again

Sweet like candy to my soul.
sweet u rock and sweet you roll
Lost for you im so lost for you
Oh, when u come crash into me.

And Ill come into you,
In a boy’s dream,
In a boy’s dream.

Touch your lips just so i know
In your eyes, Love it glows so
Im bared bone and crazy for you

If Ive gone over board,
Then Im begging u to forgive me for my haste
When Im holding u so girl,
Close to me……..

Crash into me, baby……….

Could somebody tell me how to change my blog design?? It looks so gay and uncool now, which is totally not me!! U know why? Because Im cool and man, totally man……more man than some of u would ever be!! MUAAaaahahahahahhaaha